I've created this blog as an outlet as I find my way back to God. I've had my back turned to God for over 10 years, since the age of 15 or so. And I'm finally finding my way back. I'm finding that satan wants to keep me and keeps casting all these lingering feelings of doubt on me. I try to fight back. I fight back using prayer, reading the Bible, listening to Christian music, going to church and trying to make choices that would make Him proud.
The thing that first changed my whole life was talking to Antoine about Korn and about Brian "Head" Welch quitting the band because he "went religious." That conversation stuck with me as I went home, and I was curious about what exactly happened to Head. I looked him up on youtube and found Brian "Head" Welch-I am Second and after watching this my head was spinning. I felt like, I've been there, I know some of the feelings he's talking about. I can relate to this. And furthermore I thought, if he can be where he was....and get to where he is now...so can I. I listened to him talk about how much his life changed for the better after asking God to come into his life, I listened to how he got off the drugs, started taking an active role in his daughters life, quit the band, started writing books, making his own music, making more money than he did in Korn.
If finding God can change someones life so much for the better, I want in. But sometimes it's hard to figure out how. How to redefine my life...How to figure out where I'm going and how to get there. And it's a lot to take in. I could talk about this forever. Or at least for a lot longer, but I'm going to have to call it a night.
For all you believers out there, pray for me please :) I would appreciate it.
Peace and Love to you all. God Bless!
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